testing something =P

Blaze at 2:51 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

wow I actually have something of some worth to type.

As some of you may know, I was in the papers a few times because of a fire that broke out at the graveyard near school. My friends and I pulled a old man out of the fire and helped the firefighters to put it out. So what has happened is we recently got given awards for our bravery. Now mine and two other peoples names have been added to a list the royal humane society has of people who have done heroic deeds. So yay me. "Infamy" as it was put on the night. It was a good night, but I was actually put down by the fact I went by myself. All the other five people who were awarded came with their parents, family, friends and so on. Then there was me. On me lonesome. It was embarrasing. Especially at the point where the parents were allowed to come up for photos. Hah. Nice. And when the Chancellor was saying how proud they should be of us, which reminded me of something mum said just before I left. Mum didn't want to come cos apparantly I'm "nothing to be proud of", Dad couldn't come because it was the pool finals, and Scott had to go there too because he's part of Dad's pool team. And then at the end, they all went off with their families to celebrate, and I was outside by reception, in the dark by myself (this was bout 8:00), waiting for a cab. It was supposed to be a night I would remember for good reasons. Never turned out like that.

Should I be happy because of helping to save Mr Unselds life and for this award? Or hurt because I'll be the only one I can share that experience with? I don't know. I just want some support.


Blaze at 12:35 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

Your Energy is Red. You are strong in character and
love to be active and competitive. Driven and
goal oriented, you know what you want and what
it takes to get it. Courageous, strong, and
fair, you like to see equal justice for all.
You prefer the material world and all things
tangible.

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technician, weight lifter, athlete,
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knows as Warrior Angels, because they are the
army of God. Not always meaning that they are
in war, simply that their job is to protect
unwary humans from dark dragons, or other evil
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You are a fire shadow. The feathery glow of your
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in the entire world. You are constantly
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next. You have heat, energy, magic, and
charisma and hold the power of beauty and
destruction. However, the dying of your embers
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You're Element is Flame. You have a strong,
independant, fiery personality and you
obviously don't ley other's puch you around.
You like being in charge and don't care what
other people think. In fact, you like to stand
out and be yourself. You're probably shy when
people first meet you but your a ball of energy
that could explode at any given moment. You
like to laugh and whether you admit it or not,
you like to fight. You're peronality that is
wild and untamable. You're beauty is physically
fit and a little sexy and you have a very
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Blaze at 12:32 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

=P

Blaze at 11:35 AM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

So yeah here I am again.
Art is coming on well now. I've FINALLY finished the scary human cloning final piece, and the expression of roses one. Alls well with the world (lol). It's just the sketchbooks that are bringing me down atm. I'm sooo scared to get in touch with Ravensbourne. What if they turn me down (which they prob will)? Mum would be proved right and I would have failed at the only thing I wanna do atm. I'm brickin it. Someone needs to save me from myself.

Hopefully I'll be going to see Herr Tolley today, so that'll be fun.

Went to Bromley with Heather and Serkan on Sunday. Serkan is sooo cool. We dragged Heather in to see Chris her new other half and embarrassed the living shit outta her, in true haley style. It was no big, as she soon found out afterwards :D. Serkan also read my palm for me but didn;t get to say much cos his bus came. The first thing he said was that I tend to hold a lot of things back on a first meeting, then that I have a secret life that nobody knows of (hehe) and finally that I tend to gamble with my life in the way of taking risks. Does anyone agree?


Blaze at 12:31 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

Said I'd post eventually, and things have been a lil hectic at the mo so it's taken a while. First things first.

My grandfather died two weeks ago. There's a whole load of shit flying around concerning it too. I didn't find out until Scott told me about him, rather bluntly too seeing as he thought that I already knew. I told him over the phone one night that something was up with Dad, and he replied "Yeah, it's about your grandad's death isn't it?". So you can imagine my reaction to that. Then he told me that Dad was gonna tell me in his own time, but seeing as his death was a week before even Scott found out, that went through the window. My parents still haven't told me to my face, even though I think they have gathered that I know by now. But neither of my brothers know, cos one's 7 and doesnt need the grief, and the other is too senstive at the mo so I will tell him soon. I couldn't go to his funeral cos someone had to look after Brandon.

Also the whole family arguement has been dug up and exhumed again. Not going into too many details, but it was ok for dad's side of the family to forget that grandad even existed when he was alive and healthy, and then when he became seriously ill with dimensia it was supposedly perfectly fine for them to take his money and not even visit him. BULLOCKS. HOW DARE THEY? My mum and dad looked after him whenever they could. He came and stayed around during the holidays, and also when they had the time and the space. Even though he was ill, and it got pretty scary sometimes. Senile dimensia is not a pretty thing as you could imagine. One time it got really bad, when I was in year 10 i think (not too sure). He locked himself in my room for a week, refusing to eat, chucking his clothes into the bin, refusing to come out, saying that an assassin coming after me and my brothers, and saying that the man in the mirror kept on telling him how pathetic he was and insulting him all the time. He didn't know it was his own reflection. That time mum had to get some help to come around, she ordered that the caring home in Greenwich where he stayed should come and pick him up because he was't eating and was getting worse. But you know what they said? "Sorry, but he isn't in our borough if he is in your property in Kent, so there's nothing we can do about it." WHAT THE FUCK? So we called a caring home in our borough if they can come and take him, but they said they couldn't because he was with a different caring home. Great. What is the world coming to? So we had to do something. Me and my mum forced ourselves into my bedroom door, which he had put my cabinet against, and told him he had to eat something. He got aggressive then and pushed mum out the door and almost down the stairs, but I pulled him back through into my room and held the door closed while mum called the police and ambulance. Even the police had trouble taking him out. It took four of them. A surprising amount of strength. It broke my dad's heart, grandad didn't recognise my younger brothers, and it was hard for him to remember who me and mum were. He wasn't allowed back to our house anymore after that, incase it happened again. So we saw him a lot less due to the fact my parents couldn't visit him too often because of lack of time and it was a fair drive. He got awful lonely. Concerning my dads side of the family, some lived not 5 mins from where his caring home was, and didnt visit him whatsoever. How could they be so cruel? They could visit him every day if they wanted, but they didn't visit him ONCE. Then they had the cheek to phone up my dad after the funeral and say how negligent dad was to grandad. He hit the roof. Utter bull. Dad said if he had something to say he could come down and say it to the whole family to our faces, not down a telephone cable. Bastard just hung up. He knows not to say it to dad face to face.

It's terrible. My grandad was a lovely bloke before his illness. He loved Brandon to pieces. Dad did everything he could for him, and they go snubbing it as if they're the righteous ones who weren't to be blamed. I'd love to see them again. Just so I could give them a piece of my mind.


Blaze at 10:54 AM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

Finally I have sorted out this whole bloody blog thing and my actual site too. NOTHING is hotlinked or whatever, so I'll have no complaints, and the picture above is MINE. So there. =P

Still at Rigby, doing my Art, same old same old. So yeah this will be updated from now on. You are now priveliged to my maniacal ramblings . . .

Blaze at 12:46 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

Does anyone think I should change my layout?

Blaze at 12:14 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter

Art is coming on well. I visited Ravensbourne on Tuesday (by myself) and it was so cool. The equipment they've got there is fantastic, the people are friendly and it's better than I thought it would be. I really hope I get in there =).
The Tarot is really coming on well for me too. All seems to be well in the world at the mo.
On the Sunday I won by SKILL heather dammit! And Tobbs - don't worry, and hope you had a good time at Feeder!!!
=P

Blaze at 12:13 PM [comment]

I'm a lover and a fighter